Saturday, 16 July 2005

About itself.

Its quite sad really, and makes me feel not a little guilty, that I dumped into this post and subsequently deleted, two random thoughts that occurred to me before I started blogging. The purpose of my blog you see, is to write. My purpose in writing is not to blog. Its strange that the deepest guilt and hurt are felt when we defeat our own purposes. If our purposes are defeated by circumstances, then we are sad, but sadness is a burden man has been given the ability to carry, for it has been, is, and will ever be, his companion - sometimes forgotten, but always there. Guilt, however, is a load that quickly becomes unbearable, and results in men either cracking or trying desperately to undo their mistake. A very nice example of the latter, is this little paragraph of mine.

I could have written a lot. I could have shared the thick, fragrant, soothing taste of a divine scoop of sitaphal icecream, the quiet but disconcerting hum of a cold computer lab in the wee hours of the morn, the cool silence projected by the silvery glitter of a grassy maidan on a moonlit night as seen through clumps of dark swaying trees or the loose relaxation and quiet satisfaction brought on by a good head massage. But I did not, because unlike feelings of anger, bitterness, frustration and their kin, feelings of gentle peace, detached loneliness (mostly), enthusiastic interest and likeable pressure are easier to experience than to write about.

9 comments:

Safari Al said...

Mein gott...sitaphal ice-cream...and you didn't even tel me...!!!

Nice post dude. I can't even write .18% coherent stuff.


p.s.: did you have to give a coupon to get that ice-cream a la M1

Anonymous said...

:)
:)
i read, i smile.
comprehension will set in a lot later, if it ever does.
for now those silvery, glittering, melodious words will suffice

Psmith said...

That felt real real good.

Anonymous said...

Welcome to MY blog...Yes,this is the blog of me and my subconscious subsets(a la "fight-club" ?).

Anonymous said...

Dude! i really dont know who the person above is.i like ur blog a lot.and it is your blog.btw,as proof ..i havent even seen fight club.

Psmith said...

What rot man, kindly refrain from further vandalism.

DeepLag said...

if i comment nice blog,will u accept it.i mean,a nice blog comforts people.a nice blog is conformist,adhering to age old human values,born more out of necessity,than principles,which again is a relative genre.so u should be happy when i , a common man say, bad bad blog.

Anonymous said...

And yet you have somehow managed to convey the feeling amply. Good post. :-)

Anonymous said...

influxed emotions in a tiny head, or in the HAAT. whatever it is good to be human. :) nice is this again.